Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Mistress Entry

The Valentine’s Day party was something. The only really good part was that Tram made me so proud. He was flawless. He looked so beautiful…mmm, and I showed him off. He was such a good boy even through the drama of the party.

Master Gabriel introduced me to a submissive named Michael. Whoa, he was a big, strong man, who had such a commanding presence about him. I was very shocked to learn that he was a submissive. I was intrigued by this man, whatever Mistress obtained that submissive was going to have lots of fun with him.

Master Gabriel showed me off to everyone throughout the evening. I had to admit I enjoyed his praise. And…well…I enjoyed being by his side. It felt strangely cold when he wasn’t by my side. Strange, isn’t it? I suppose I was using him as a security blanket or something. Master Gabriel was amazing. Everyone showed him the utmost respect, but he was never arrogant about it.

I had sent Tram to be with Alex while Master Gabriel introduced me to Michael and I was most eager to find him. Knowing Alex they were probably up in a bedroom by now. I could see how much Alex’s pretty little male submissive was turning him on. Lucian did look really yummy.

As I went up the stairs to find Tram I couldn’t seem to get Master Gabriel out of my mind. I felt like some stupid teenage girl who had a silly crush on her teacher. I opened the door and saw Alex standing there with Lucian and Tram kneeling in the back of the room. Alex said something, but I, for the life of me, I couldn’t remember what it was. I went over to Tram and stroked his handsome face. I don’t know what I was thinking, but I turned around and latched onto Alex. Tram was right there and yet I needed to be fucked by Alex. The way Alex took me was exactly what I needed. He was demanding, intense and took what he wanted. Just as I came, Master Raven walked into the room. He was pissed off. Alex roared out his orgasm, which made my pussy twitched. I love hearing a man come. Alex helped me up to my feet and I smoothed down my dress. Raven asked me to leave him and Alex alone for a moment, and of course I did. I went over to Tram and hooked the leash back on. I led him out of the room and paused by the door. I was curious to see why Raven was so pissed off. Was he jealous? To my surprise Raven was prattling on about Master Gabriel. He said Alex was stupid for touching me in Master Gabriel’s house, or something to the affect anyways. I led Tram downstairs weary of this evening already. The last thing I needed was that damn Geneva getting into my face. Tram knelt down beside me. He knows I love it when he does that when another Mistress is around. I don’t what came over me, but I slapped that bitch’s hand away when she tried to touch my Tram. I didn’t want her filthy hands touching my beautiful submissive. When Geneva called me Master Gabriel’s whore Tram leapt up. I quickly motioned for him to stop. If he would have did anything to that bitch I’m sure she would have tried to get Tram thrown out of the club. I had to protect my Tram. I was completely shocked when Master Gabriel walked over and slapped that stupid bitch. I was so shocked by this I didn’t really hear what he said to her. She told him about me and Alex being together. Why, I don’t know, like Master Gabriel’s going to care, but he seemed to get even angrier. He turned to me and apologized for Geneva’s behavior. I was flabbergasted. Why would a man like him take the time to apologize to me for something some stupid Mistress had done? In fact, why would he even come to my defense to begin with. Dominants always bickered amongst themselves.

Not wanting to deal with anything else I excused myself and me and Tram went home. All I wanted was to hold my submissive while I fell asleep.
Tram Entry

Mistress dressed me carefully for the party. Admittedly, I wasn’t wearing anything that complicated, yet she still took her time. Her hands caressed every part of my body. The care, the tenderness…I felt so special at that moment. When she finished dressing me she stepped back and let her eyes devour me. My cock ached and all I wanted to do was to beg her to allow me to touch her.

She told me to wait right where I was as she went to get dressed. It seemed like forever that I stood there, but it was well worth the wait. My God, did she look amazing. She looked like she was going to a really fancy affair and the contrast between our outfits was arousing to say the less. She told me she was already proud of me and it didn’t matter what the other dominants said. I love her smile, hell I live for that smile.

I have to admit most of the party was a blur. I was so focused on being a good submissive for my Mistress that I didn’t really noticed the other guests too much. Mistress seemed almost nervous when Master Gabriel came over. In fact, I swore I felt my leash tremble a little and I could see how hard she gripped my leash. The way Gabriel…I mean Master Gabriel, Mistress gets really angry if I forget to address Master Gabriel properly, the way he looked at her still bugs the hell out of me. I won’t let it bother me tonight. Mistress talked with him for a little while, then she removed my leash and told me to go to Master Alex and Lucian. I couldn’t take my eyes off her as she followed Master Gabriel.

I told Master Alex that Mistress wanted me to stay with him for a little while. Lucian was gracious as always. He is such a sweet man. I watched Master Alex as he talked with the other dominants. He doesn’t act like the rest of the dominants. It is blatantly obvious that he doesn’t really give a shit what the other dominants thought about him. Master Alex took me and Lucian up to the second story of Master Gabriel’s home. We went into one of the unoccupied rooms. The second the door closed Master Alex latched onto Lucian and kissed him with such passion it made my cock hard. I don’t usually get aroused watching two men making out, but whoo, the way Master Alex kissed Lucian and the way Lucian mewed was amazing. I started to feel like the third wheel so I knelt down at the back of the room. I couldn’t leave, because my Mistress told me to stay with Master Alex. Sensing my discomfort, Lucian whispered something to Master Alex. I was stunned when Master Alex told me that I could join in if I wanted to. I didn’t know what to say or do. Alex just laughed and swatted Lucian on the ass. He told Lucian to kneel down beside me. As Lucian did Mistress came into the room. She seemed kind of flustered. She walked over to me and gently caressed my face. Alex asked her what Master Gabriel wanted. My heart stopped when she said he wanted to show her a new male submissive. She commented on how big this male was and that she was surprised that such a man wanted to be a submissive and not a dominant. She said this Michael had a very commanding presence about him. Alex made some comment about Mistress wanting to dominant such a strong man. Mistress just chuckled, but I could see that she found such a prospect intriguing. Who the hell was this Michael and why did Master Gabriel show him to her? I was a little relieved to hear her tell Alex that Master Gabriel was showing off this Michael to everyone. My relief was short lived when I watched Mistress latch onto to Alex. I heard Lucian gasp a little too. No doubt he was just as surprised as I was. Alex lifted Mistress up and carried her to the bed. The way she pawed at his clothes, that look of lust in her eyes…damn I was having trouble containing my jealousy. If Mistress wanted to fuck I was here and she knew I was always ready for her. Just when I thought I couldn’t stand it any longer I felt Lucian grab my hand. I looked over at the pretty man.

“Enjoy watching them,” he whispered.

He was turned on watching his Master fucking my Mistress. There was no jealousy only delight in watching his Master’s pleasure. I looked at it with Lucian’s eyes, watching my Mistress’ pleasure did arouse me. I felt the jealousy start to fade. I squeezed Lucian’s hand back, silently thanking him.

Just as Mistress climaxed, Master Raven came into the room. He didn’t look too happy that Alex was with Mistress. I felt his eyes on me and Lucian. I watched Lucian bow his head then I quickly did the same. Raven quickly looked over to Alex and Mistress when Alex roared out his orgasm. Master Raven was not happy and once Mistress and Alex got dressed Raven asked Mistress to leave him and Alex alone. Mistress of course did as he asked. She placed her leash on my collar then she left the room. She waited by the door. I heard Raven yelling at Alex, something about Master Gabriel was all I could make out. Mistress said nothing as we walked down the stairs.

A stern-looking woman with two sissy boy submissives stopped Mistress at the bottom of the stairs. It was more than obvious that she wanted to start trouble. I knelt down beside Mistress. The second this Mistress Geneva went to pet me Mistress slapped her hand away. Mistress told her not to ever touch me. Geneva called Mistress, Master Gabriel’s little whore, and I quickly rose to my feet. No one calls my Mistress a whore. Mistress signaled for me to stop. Before Mistress could say anything in response Geneva looked pale as a ghost. I looked over to see what invoked such a response from that bitch. Master Gabriel had heard what she said and he looked pissed. He slowly walked over and slapped Geneva hard in the face, saying she was lucky that he didn’t just throw her ass out. Geneva babbled something about Mistress being with Alex, this only future pissed off Gabriel. He told Geneva to get out of his sight, then he turned to Mistress and apologized for Geneva’s behavior. He caressed Mistress’ cheek then walked away. I could see that he was still very angry, but I had a feeling it was more over the fact Alex had been with Mistress then any other thing.

Mistress and I left the party. When we arrived home she wanted me to sleep in her bed. She snuggled against me without saying a word. I didn’t press the matter. I simply held her close to me.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Tram’s Entry

Mistress left earlier today. She would only say she was going to Master Alex’s house. I don’t understand why she didn’t want me to accompany her. I usually did when she went over to Master Alex’s home.

I waited impatiently for her to return. I wanted to be with my Mistress. My body craved hers. I wanted to convince her to let me touch her today. Just thinking about touching her, loving her…damn my body aches. I know there is no guarantee that Mistress will let me touch her, but I was going to try my best to earn the right to.

After what seemed like an eternity she came home. She walked a little stiffly and when I asked if she was okay she just told me to go down to the playroom and lean over the whipping bench. I love it when Mistress whips me. Sometimes she will just spank me when I’m leaning over the whipping bench. Either way, I was in a hurry to find out which she was going to do.

After a few moments she came down to the playroom. She secured me to the bench and showed me the flogger. I have never been flogged before and I was rather nervous. She reassured me that she would stop if this was too much for me. I instantly relaxed. She began flogging me in a steady rhythm. It was painful, but nothing I couldn’t endure. She told me how beautiful I looked right now, how sexy I made her feel, what a good boy I was. Her words repeated in my mind as she picked up the pace of the flogging. The pain was starting to get too much for me, then…I don’t know how I did this, but I went above the pain and into some sort of high. I wasn’t aware when she stopped flogging me. The next thing I knew Mistress was in front of me gently stroking my face, lavishing kisses over my face. That look on her face, oh my God, that look, it made me feel so pleased, so proud. When she nuzzled her face against mine and told me I was hers all hers, my heart lept.

Mistress allowed me to sleep in her bed. When she fell asleep I just laid there looking at her. I saw her wince when she rolled on her back. She quickly rolled to the other side that is when I saw the bruises on her back. I quickly woke her up and asked her who did this to her. My blood boiled at the mere thought of someone hurting my Mistress like this. She sat up and softly told me to calm down. She explained how she had Master Alex flog her, so that she would know what it felt like. I asked why in the world she would want to do that. She replied “for you, my submissive.” I didn’t know what to say until she explained that she wanted to know what it felt like so she wouldn’t hurt me with the flogger that she wanted to know the pain I would feel. Then she told me to go back to sleep and to not think about it anymore. But how could I not think about it. She endure the pain of Master Alex’s flogger, and judging by the bruising on her back he didn’t hold back any. A part of me wanted to rush over to Master Alex’s house and beat the shit out of him for hurting my Mistress. However, I knew I couldn’t do that. She had asked him to do that to her. I lay back down and just looked at her. In this moment I knew she was the one I wanted, the one I wanted to serve, to love and cherish forever.
Mistress Entry

Tram’s getting all wound up about Master Gabriel Valentine’s Day party that is coming up in about a week. I have to admit I’m a little bit nervous about the party myself. It will be the first time the other dominants see me with Tram. I’m not worried about how Tram does. I know he will make me so proud. I just hope I can make Tram be proud to be my submissive. Even about this, whatever happens, happens and that is all to it. Besides Master Gabriel told me he can’t wait to show me off. It was kind of an odd thing for him to say, but I think he was trying to make me feel at little more at ease.

Yesterday, I went over to Alex’s house. I wanted to use a new flogger on Tram and since I have never experienced a flogger before I wanted Alex to use it on me before I used it on Tram. The damn thing hurt like hell, but it made such a delicious whomp noise. When Alex was done flogging me he gently covered me with his body, being ever so careful not to touch the tender skin on my back. He whispered gently to me, asking me over and over if he had hurt me, then he whispered comforting words to me as he gently caressed my hair. I felt very safe and cherished. This is exactly how I want Tram to feel when I let him experience a flogger. I was surprised to see that Master Raven had shown up sometime during my flogging. I felt a little awkward having been just flogged by Alex. Raven was very gracious and quickly made me feel at ease. Alex’s submissive showed me out. I could see the way Alex looked at Raven. It was quite obvious that Alex stilled loved his former Master.

When I got home I chained Tram over the whipping bench. The whipping bench always reminded me of one of those church pews that had the prayer rail in front of it. Anyways, I was still very sore from my flogging, but I couldn’t wait to see how Tram would react to the flogger. He readied himself and a hit him with the flogger. I kept my strokes light at first and slowly increased the intensity. Granted, there was no way I was going to be able to flog Tram with the same strength Alex had just flogged me, but I figured I would be able to flog Tram longer and get the same effect. I was so right. My beautiful Tram loved what I was doing to him. His muscles clinched, his breath quickened, and the way he kept shifting himself I knew his cock was rock hard. I walked around front and looked at his face. He was somewhere else, high on this experience. The pride that filled me was indescribable as I watched my beautiful submissive fly.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Tram’s entry

Mistress seems a bit distracted lately. I know it has only been a few weeks that we have been together… I might be reading too much into this. She has asked me to tell her what I need and I have yet to answer her, because honestly I never really thought about it. I just want to serve my Mistress. That’s all I want to think about now. I hope she understands.

She has been wonderful about working around my job. The office she had setup for me to work is perfect and she always makes sure I have enough time to complete my work.
I can’t help but feel a little scared. Mistress is perfect so far. You know what they say when something is too good to be true then it is usually not true. I find myself already becoming attached to her. Stupid, I know, but I can’t help myself. I don’t want to think too far into the future. I want to focus on the here and now.
I think I’m getting all melancholy because Lucian, Master Alex’s submissive is staying with us for a few days. Don’t get me wrong I like Lucian, he is a really nice guy, it just that the poor guy is going through hell right now. His Master needs time to think about something. I would be really worried if Mistress just dropped me off with the only explanation is that she needed to think. I will keep Lucian busy so that he can take his mind off it. Besides, Mistress wants me to get to know Lucian. She wants to see me and him together when I’m ready for it. Lucian is a very pretty guy, but that’s the problem he is a guy. I have never been with a guy sexually before. Mistress loves watching two guys having sex. I will do this for her, but not right now.

However, right now I must try and help Lucian get through these next two days. Poor guy, I would hate to be in his place right now.

Mistress Entry

Tram’s training is going smoother than I thought. He is so eager to please me. Yet, what I need is for him to tell me how to please him. It’s easy to tie him up, spank him, pleasure him, but is this enough? Maybe I’m expecting too much. I think he is throwing himself into this role of being submissive, perhaps this is what he needs right now.

I was surprised to see Alex today, even more so when he asked me to watch his submissive Leon for a few days while he sorted his feelings out about Raven. Poor Alex, any fool could see how much he loves Raven. I remember when we trained together he was so brokenhearted over not being with Raven anymore.

Of course I agreed to watch Leon for him. I would pretty much do anything Alex asks me to do. He was such a big help to me during my training. Another thing about Alex is that he has such a unique view of this lifestyle he was Raven’s submissive, now he is Lucian’s Master. I didn’t think a person could be both a submissive and dominant. I always thought it could only go one way. It shows how naive I am about this lifestyle.