Nov. 5 Mistress

This first week has been kind of awkward. I don’t want to push Tram to hard. Though, I couldn’t resist getting him naked and tying him up. I wanted to admire my submissive’s beautiful body. He was such a good boy. He whimpered when I told him he wasn’t allow to come this week. I gave the poor thing a cock ring to help him out. I think it’s important not to start our journey with sex. Plus, the anticipation is so delicious.

I’m going shopping today for a dildo for Tram’s beautiful ass. I can’t wait to fuck him with it. Plus, I’m buying some kinky clothes for him for when we play. I think however, he will wear those clothes just for me. I will dress him more conservatively when we go out. He looks so good in his jeans and maybe a form fitting leather shirt. I saw the most delicious looking shirt that would be perfect for him.

I sat Tram down for a serious talk. I needed to know more about him to be able to be a better Mistress for him. My sexy sub., is an architect. I wasn’t expecting that, but I suppose he would have had some sort job in his normal like, an architect…it does suit him. I will have to think of some scenes to incorporate his profession. He said he had a couple months of vacation time. I told him to use only one month of it while we get to know each other and to save the other days for just in case. I am going to see if he can work from home and make sure all of things he needs for work are brought here. He seemed to really enjoy our afternoon of just talking with each other. I learned a lot about him. He’s such a kind and sweet man.

After our talk we went back to being Mistress and submissive. I told him we will be having these talks at least every couple of weeks. His smile was so genuine. Yesterday, Master Gabriel showed up for a visit. Tram was very tense. I saw him looking at Gabriel’s submissive Elizabeth. She was so prime and proper, very well trained. Of course, I would expect Gabriel to have a well-trained submissive. I will talked to Tram after I come back from shopping and assure him that he is doing really well so far, and not to compare himself to Elizabeth. No doubt she has been on the scene for sometime. I thought for a moment that Gabriel was flirting with me, but quickly dismissed the idea. What in the world would a man like Gabriel see in me? I know Gabriel thinks I will make a good Mistress and I’m flattered that he believes that.

Well, I have arrived at the store. I can’t wait to play with Tram later.

Nov 5 Tram’s entry

Mistress had a long talk with me the other day. She wanted me to tell her all about myself, plus she wanted to make sure that I did make all the necessary preparations for the year that we would be together, you know, like sublease my apartment, changing my address etc. It was nice talking with her. I was allowed to sit next to her on her bed. She wanted to know everything about me, my likes, dislikes. She even wanted to know my favorite movie, song, and book. She listened carefully, like she was storing everything she heard into her memory. It made me feel…special. No lover I ever had listen to me like Mistress did.

I’m new to this intense lifestyle. I did play with lovers, let them tie me up, spank me etc., none of them made me feel the way Mistress has made me feel so far. It’s kind of sad in a way, I have only know Mistress for a little over a week and I already feel so connected with her. Some of my old lovers I had known for a year or longer. Never, did I ever feel like this with any of them.

Mistress has been really easy on me, but I think that is going to change shortly, especially after our talk. She has tied me up and spanked me, but that has been it so far. She hasn’t allowed me to come. And I haven’t been able to touch her in a sexual way. I really hope she will allow me the pleasure.

Master Gabriel stopped by yesterday afternoon. That man freaks me out. And that perfect female submissive he has makes me feel self-conscious. Mistress said she won’t read this journal and I believe her. I need to write this thought down. Master Gabriel…there is just something that bugs me about him. Perhaps, I’m just jealous. The way he looks at Mistress. I don’t like it. What if he loves her? I can’t compete with a man like that. Still, he is dominant and Mistress is as well. I wouldn’t think they would be compatible. I’m going to try not to think about it. It’s not my place.

Mistress is going shopping today for me. I asked her what was she going to buy me and she said it was going to be a surprise. I can’t wait to see what it is.
The hardest part so far is not being able to come. I have to force myself not to think about Mistress in a sexual way and focus only on serving her. Oh damn, my cock is getting hard just thinking about Mistress’s body. I better push these thoughts out my mind and quickly.